Assignmenttt~~~ =_='''

Gahhh... bosan toi aku kalau assignment jaaa... nak gak masak2... tp kena tnggu sem depan~ =_=''' lambat lagiii~~~

Anywaysss~~~ aku tktau nk tlis apa nih... but aku skrg dh bleh kerap2 update blog la kottt... dh ad app utk android... bru nk seaech... haha

They Made Me Smile~ Thanks~ ^_^

Hi there!!! ^_^ long time no post2 kan kat blog aku nih~ tak sempat plus takda lappy la kat poli aku nih~ lappy aku rosak, takkan nak usung lappy ayah aku kan~ kang dia x wat keja lak kalau aku bawak lappy dia~ hahaha~ ^_^

so here's the story~ a story bout my friends in PIS (Politeknik Ibrahim Sultan)~

secara jujurnya masa aku baru masuk dalam kelas time hari pendaftaran tu, aku rasa macam aku takkan bergaul langsung dengan semua orang kat dlm klas aku~ mcm mana nk kata ah, maybe aku tetiba timbul rasa segan nak bercakap sebab semua orang communicate dalam bahasa formal (KL yawww) sedangkan aku ni budak kedah yg tau ckp kedah ngn kelantan jaaa~

luckily ada la roommate aku nih yg ngeng sikit bleh la dok melayan slang kedah dgn aku yg dok campur2 slang kedah + johor + melaka~ dgaq lawak gila... tapi aku rasa mcm ohsem jgak kalau buat camtuh kann~ hahaha~ lgpn bukan selalu bleh buat camtuh~ 2 taun stgh ja aku bleh nk nyembang ngn depa guna slang aku sniri (lah sangattt)~ xD

so here are some pictures of me and my friends here in PIS~ ^_^

with all of them in my life, ive found some of the missing pieces in my life~ they made me smile~ they are among the sweetest and memories with them will always be kept safe in my heart~ never to be forgotten~ ^_^

Syamie Claws~ ^_^

The Truth~

this post will hurt you i guess~ but at least you know the truth about my feelings~

here's my list of 'im sorry' that i think i was supposed to say to you~

im sorry that i always hurt you without knowing about it~
im sorry that im a "not fun to be with" boyfriend~
im sorry that im not a person that can always be there for you~
im sorry for keeping secrets from you, i know that you hate it~
im sorry coz i dont really know how to cheer you up~
im sorry coz i never knew that im always hurting you~
im sorry coz i never have fun topic to talk to you~
im sorry i never give you the happiness that you always wanted~

syami mengaku yg syami tak reti nak jaga hati wa~ apa yg syami tau nk enjoy life syami~ syami cuba nak jadi "the happy to be with" guy tapi syami tak reti~ sangat2 tak reti~ kadang2 syami taktau nk cakap apa kat wa sebab syami takut wa sakit hati sebab syami *rasanya wa sentiasa sakit hati*~

dulu masa syami kolah lagi, kita kan jarang contact~ seriously, i was so lonely~ kadang2 syami terlupa yg syami ni actually dgn wa~ i just wanted you to be there~ bukannya syami nak paksa wa contact syami sentiasa dulu tapi syami nak wa ada bila syami rasa kurang senang~ my school days were not that cool~ i got no push from my family and i was hoping that you can be the push~

well suma dah lepas~ takleh nk ulang dah pon~ my school life ended like a fairy tail that has no happy ending~ now syami dah nak sambung blaja dah~ syami akn pi lagi jauh dari wa~ im not sure whether im sad or not bout this~ im not even sure about my feelings~ i was alone for so long that im actually used to it~ i dont even think im the old me~ the happy person that i was supposed to be~

im sorry if this post hurts you, im hurting more than you can imagine~ all i wish is you to be happy~ if i cant make you happy, then maybe one day someone will~ wawa, ill try my best~ if i cant, im sorry~ i just dont want you to regret~

List Of My Dream~ ^_^

Yoooo~ ^_^ hey there guys~ gosh its been a while since i last updated my blog here eh??? ^_^ well, this post is gonna be all about my dreams~ what i want, what i will do and what i will be~ Dreams Come True rite??? so lets hope for the best that my dreams will come true one day~ InsyaAllah~ ^_^

1. Wanna buy a BRAND NEW LAMBORGHINI~ ♥ _ ♥
2. Wanna be a billionaire when i reach 40~ ^_^
3. Wanna go to Japan to watch Sakura petals fall~ ^_^
4. Wanna buy my own private Jet and Helicopter~ ^_^
5. Wanna hire best engineers to build a unique Smart House~ ^_^
6. Wanna buy a superbike yawww~ maybe 6 years from now~ ♥ _ ♥
7. Wanna open my own paintball field as soon as i reach 30~ ^_^
8. Wanna go to Mecca to perform Haj with my whole family~ and maybe with hers too~ <3 hehe~ ^_^
9. Wanna buy a waterbed~ gosh i really want those when i was a kid~ ^_^
10.Wanna help orphans achieve their dreams~ ^_^

And last but not leasttt~~~

ME WANNA MARRY YOU WAWA~ PLEASE BE MINE FOREVERRR~ ♥ _ ♥

we'll never know when and how we'll achieve our dreams but if we  keep moving on trying to achieve it with a bit of doa to Allah, insyaAllah, it might come true~ just don't stop believing, dont stop trying and never give up~


Syamie Claws~ ^_^

Holla macha~ long time no type yawww~ hohoho~ seems like this blog is gettin really dusty eh? ^_^

anywaysss~ ada menda yg aku agak confused sebenarnya~ one question, adakah salah untuk saya menaiktarafkan diri saya supaya saya dapat menimba lebih pengalaman tentang bidang yang saya ceburi??? adakah saya dapat maju dalam bidang yang saya ceburi jika saya kekal pada tahap yang sama?

sumthin like what im gonna tell happens and its really frustrating~ so here we go~

aku kerja dalam sebuah syarikat nih, Syarikat A~ syarikat ni takda la besar pon~ aku boleh dikatakan orang kanan dalam syarikat ni sebab aku antara orang2 yang membangunkan syarikat nih~ aku tgk syarikat ni dah lama beroperasi, tapi masih tak maju2~  kemudian aku terima tawaran utk kerja sebagai orang kanan dalam syarikat lain which is Syarikat B n org yg tawarkan kerja tu pon kawan aku, Z~

dalam hati aku, aku nak pi kerja kat situ n tgk apa yg ada dlm syarikat tu tapi tak ada dlm syarikat aku~ aku dah mintak kebenaran dari BOSS dan dia kata "okie"~ jadi aku pon pi la kerja kat tempat tu n aku dapat bnyk pengalaman n aku mula excited nak balik ke Syarikat A aku n kongsi apa yg aku dapat masa aku kerja kat Syarikat B~ tapi bila aku sampai ja kat Syarikat A, beberapa orang rakan buka mulut bagitau aku sumthin~

dia cakap, "weh depa marah kat hang sebab hang pi kerja kat Syarikat B"~ terus2 dlm hati aku ckp "dude like seriously??? bukan ka hang kata 'okie' ka masa aku cakap aku nak pi kerja kat B???" then ada la benda lain yg diorang ckp mcm "lepas ni kalau Z ajak hang kerja dgn dia lagi hang jgn pi dah" and "kalau hang nk kerja dlm A, hang tak boleh kerja dalam syarikat lain dah"

weh, aku dah kerja bawah hang, hang tau aku pi kerja tempat lain pon aku akan balik kerja dgn hang tapi hang still nak halang aku kerja kat syarikat lain~ aku balik A sebab nak bantu A bangun jadi lebih maju naaa~ bukan sebab aku nak jatuhkan A~

plus, apa la salah Z kat hang eh BOSS??? tau tak sebab dia jugak nama A naik lepas dia bawak 'anak kapal' kita pi kat this event yg besar dlm industri kita~ i just dont get it how the shitto can you guys get this kind of old school thinkin~ KOLOT WEHHH~ SERIOUS KOLOTTT~

tlg la weh~ kalau kita nak maju, kita tak boleh nak duduk dalam tahap yg sama sepanjang masa~ kalau camtu, smpai ada cicit pon takkan maju~ kalau angpa tak suka sgt aku pi kerja kat syarikat lain, then you guys gave me no choice but to quit~ if you dont wanna move on to a higher level with me, then ill have to do it alone~ i dont give a damn about you guys, i only care bout the people who wants to move forward with me~

so please, if i quit, dont be mad at me~ its not me betraying you guys but its you who gave me no choice~ ADIOS BROTHAAA~

Problems~ Work Okayyy~ ^_^

aduhaiii~ dah agak dah yg akan ada masalah kat tempat keja~ last month aku tak pi keja sebab org atas dok kacau sana sini smpai abg nan(lifeguard partner) pon pelik pasepa aku dah tak mau masuk keja kat kolam~ sekarang depa dah tau apa masalah pihak atasan~

FYI, last month's pay diorang still tak kasi lagi kat kami~ kami dah keja dua bulan but still, mana gaji yg patut kami terima? aku ingatkan aku sorang ja nak berhenti kerja kat situ tapi tgk2 abg2 yg keja skali dgn aku pon nak bnti gak~

no wonder malam2 bila aku pi swim kat kolam, takda sapa pon yg jaga kat situ~ nampak sangat depa2 tu dah naik angin gak dengan pihak atasan~ depa dapat tau lambat sebab depa jarang pi pejabat atasan, kalau pi pon nk pi amik gaji~ sekarang bila aku dah keluar, depa baru nak nampak apa masalah pihak atasan yg menyebabkan aku bnti keja *cewah yang menyebabkan tuh* XD

and just now bila mak aku pi kolam nak swim dengan adik2 aku, mak aku cakap kawasan kolam dah kotor~ bukan macam masa kami jaga dulu~ bukan nak belagak but the golf department are conquered by indians~ so they dont really like the presence of malays in the department~ diorang saja nak carik pasal suruh kami bnti keja then amik tempat kami sedangkan depa tak jaga elk2 macam apa yg kami buat dulu~ sekarang sampah ada merata2 kat kolam, n the water is not that clean as how it was supposed to be~

so there you have it... another piece of my mind about work~ and the reason why i stopped working at the pool too~ anyways~

toodles~ ^_^

Tension! =_='''

goshhh~ aku serious benci bila dok kat rumah aku la nih~ depa bajet aku suka kot dok kat rumah ni bila kena arah nak buat apa~ depa tak pernah tau pasaipa aku dapat teruk dalam SPM aku~ depa tak penah tanya apa yg aku rasa bila study dlm sc stream tu~ apa yg depa tau "kalau tak dapat straight a, siap la kena beletiaq"

they never realised that i hate being at home so much that sometimes, i felt as if i wanna kill myself infront of them or maybe run away and find some place far away from home just because of my hatred towards my family~

mak aku dok kata aku takmau ikut apa yg dia pesan la apa suma... bila aku ikt apa cadangan dia, masuk sc stream, aku tak suka apa yg aku kena blajaq then aku mula la nak main lebih~ lepas tu nak suruh aku buat elok2~ depa buat macam depa paham apa yg aku rasa sedangkan depa mana penah nak tanya aku suka ka tak belajaq dalam sc stream tu~

then my dad pulak dari dlu keja nk suruh medic3~ =_=''' i really hate it when i have to go on a path where i really hate it but then having to struggle for it... lepas tu nak kata aku tak pikiaq pasal susah orang la apa suma~ aku dah cuba gak nak minat sc stream nih tapi dah aku tak boleh jugak, nak suruh aku buat apa lagi??? mati??? =_='''

memang aku anak depa, tapi depa selalu dok cakap macam depa dah konfem2 tau apa yg aku rasa sedangkan apa yg aku rasa nih lain~ aku dah sampai tak rasa kesian langsung kalau ada apa2 jadi kat family aku~ aku lebih concerned terhadap kawan2 aku coz depa understand jugak apa yg aku rasa~

so now, my hatred towards my family mmng sgt tnggi~ aku taktau samada aku bleh nak pulihkan apa yg aku rasa terhadap family aku~ i hope i can be sumone towards my family again~ huhhh~

Gila Penattt~ =_='''

GOSHHH~ like seriously... rinie ari plg teruk aku keja~ ingtkn rehat pagi2 lepas tu masuk time malam ok. tgk2 masa masuk tu kan, GILA PENAT~ bnyk keja kena wat... =_='''

rini aku kena jaga kolam kat cinta sayang... tapi aku masuk keja pukui 5... kira lewat dah la kan. aku ingtkn keja tadik buka pump ja la... tgk2 pump taleh buka (meaning theres big touble)~ sorang ni pon baru mai service lpas tuh gtau la cmna nak buka pump tuh. aku mmng tau n dya pon tau yg aku boleh nak buka tu...

aku try buka tapi pump tak jalan, tried like about 7 times... then aku putus asa, aku call la senior aku mai tlg... dya pon mai la pukui 9 mlm dok chck2 pump apa suma... Alhamdulillah pump jalan la kan... kami pon ttup la waterfall lepas tuh tabur chlorine la apa suma...

masuk2 balik nak buka pump tu balik... tgk2 pump lak wat pasai lg skali =_=''' seriously macam damn gila. punya la semangat nak balik pukul 10 tgk2 pump buat pasal... kami pon dok angkut water pump lain nk transfer water n stuff (angpa tak paham aku rasa) and pkul 11 baru la nak start try operate pump balik...

n guess what, 11.30 baru nak pasang balik... tu pon nyawa2 ikan... kami pon trus cabut ja la dah penat sgt... aku punya baju basah macam baru lepas mandi... berpeluh sgt =_=''' anywaysss~

toodles~ ^_^

Kerja Kerja Kerja~ =_='''

hey3~ ^_^ gila lah aku la nie... dok keja non-stop lak dah... ingtkn after spm ni nk keja rilek2 gitu... tgk2 kena keja power punyaaa~ kalu satu keja takpa gak tapi ni ada dua keja... mana tak mampuih gutuh. haha!

well, skrg aku kerap dok wat keja kat cinta syg ja... jaga kolam a.k.a LIFEGUARD yawww~ ^_^ cool rite??? haha ^_^ bkn apa, tapi keja nie bleh tahan gak la susah tu. kena pasang pump la, repair pump, jaga kebersihan air kolam laaa... penat3~ =_='''

tapi yg paling susa nk agak brapa bnyk chloriine nak tambah dlm ayaq kolam laaa... ada masa kena tambah bnyk, ada masa kena tambah cket jah =_=''' ada skali tu aku aslah buh smpai ayaq tuh nmpk penuh dgn chlorine ja... nasib baik la aku tutup kolam tu kalau tak memang pedih mata la sapa yang masuk mandi dalam kolam tu ^_^

oh n btw, skrg ni org2 korea dok mai malaysia, depa dok nak masuk kolam pakai bikini gutuh... gila sexy =_=''' nak tegur diorang suruh pakai baju bertutup pon susa dah tak reti cakap bahasa diorang tapi belasah ja la english... terangkan sikit2 lepas tu diorang faham la kan~ ^_^ hahaha

well, gtg... aku kena sambung keja dah sebab ada orang mai nak swim... koreans dude~ <3 wheee...

toodles~ ^_^