this post will hurt you i guess~ but at least you know the truth about my feelings~
here's my list of 'im sorry' that i think i was supposed to say to you~
im sorry that i always hurt you without knowing about it~
im sorry that im a "not fun to be with" boyfriend~
im sorry that im not a person that can always be there for you~
im sorry for keeping secrets from you, i know that you hate it~
im sorry coz i dont really know how to cheer you up~
im sorry coz i never knew that im always hurting you~
im sorry coz i never have fun topic to talk to you~
im sorry i never give you the happiness that you always wanted~
syami mengaku yg syami tak reti nak jaga hati wa~ apa yg syami tau nk enjoy life syami~ syami cuba nak jadi "the happy to be with" guy tapi syami tak reti~ sangat2 tak reti~ kadang2 syami taktau nk cakap apa kat wa sebab syami takut wa sakit hati sebab syami *rasanya wa sentiasa sakit hati*~
dulu masa syami kolah lagi, kita kan jarang contact~ seriously, i was so lonely~ kadang2 syami terlupa yg syami ni actually dgn wa~ i just wanted you to be there~ bukannya syami nak paksa wa contact syami sentiasa dulu tapi syami nak wa ada bila syami rasa kurang senang~ my school days were not that cool~ i got no push from my family and i was hoping that you can be the push~
well suma dah lepas~ takleh nk ulang dah pon~ my school life ended like a fairy tail that has no happy ending~ now syami dah nak sambung blaja dah~ syami akn pi lagi jauh dari wa~ im not sure whether im sad or not bout this~ im not even sure about my feelings~ i was alone for so long that im actually used to it~ i dont even think im the old me~ the happy person that i was supposed to be~
im sorry if this post hurts you, im hurting more than you can imagine~ all i wish is you to be happy~ if i cant make you happy, then maybe one day someone will~ wawa, ill try my best~ if i cant, im sorry~ i just dont want you to regret~
List Of My Dream~ ^_^
Yoooo~ ^_^ hey there guys~ gosh its been a while since i last updated my blog here eh??? ^_^ well, this post is gonna be all about my dreams~ what i want, what i will do and what i will be~ Dreams Come True rite??? so lets hope for the best that my dreams will come true one day~ InsyaAllah~ ^_^
1. Wanna buy a BRAND NEW LAMBORGHINI~
2. Wanna be a billionaire when i reach 40~ ^_^
3. Wanna go to Japan to watch Sakura petals fall~ ^_^
4. Wanna buy my own private Jet and Helicopter~ ^_^
5. Wanna hire best engineers to build a unique Smart House~ ^_^
6. Wanna buy a superbike yawww~ maybe 6 years from now~
7. Wanna open my own paintball field as soon as i reach 30~ ^_^
8. Wanna go to Mecca to perform Haj with my whole family~ and maybe with hers too~ <3 hehe~ ^_^
9. Wanna buy a waterbed~ gosh i really want those when i was a kid~ ^_^
10.Wanna help orphans achieve their dreams~ ^_^
And last but not leasttt~~~
ME WANNA MARRY YOU WAWA~ PLEASE BE MINE FOREVERRR~
1. Wanna buy a BRAND NEW LAMBORGHINI~
2. Wanna be a billionaire when i reach 40~ ^_^
3. Wanna go to Japan to watch Sakura petals fall~ ^_^
4. Wanna buy my own private Jet and Helicopter~ ^_^
5. Wanna hire best engineers to build a unique Smart House~ ^_^
6. Wanna buy a superbike yawww~ maybe 6 years from now~
7. Wanna open my own paintball field as soon as i reach 30~ ^_^
8. Wanna go to Mecca to perform Haj with my whole family~ and maybe with hers too~ <3 hehe~ ^_^
9. Wanna buy a waterbed~ gosh i really want those when i was a kid~ ^_^
10.Wanna help orphans achieve their dreams~ ^_^
And last but not leasttt~~~
ME WANNA MARRY YOU WAWA~ PLEASE BE MINE FOREVERRR~
Holla macha~ long time no type yawww~ hohoho~ seems like this blog is gettin really dusty eh? ^_^
anywaysss~ ada menda yg aku agak confused sebenarnya~ one question, adakah salah untuk saya menaiktarafkan diri saya supaya saya dapat menimba lebih pengalaman tentang bidang yang saya ceburi??? adakah saya dapat maju dalam bidang yang saya ceburi jika saya kekal pada tahap yang sama?
sumthin like what im gonna tell happens and its really frustrating~ so here we go~
aku kerja dalam sebuah syarikat nih, Syarikat A~ syarikat ni takda la besar pon~ aku boleh dikatakan orang kanan dalam syarikat ni sebab aku antara orang2 yang membangunkan syarikat nih~ aku tgk syarikat ni dah lama beroperasi, tapi masih tak maju2~ kemudian aku terima tawaran utk kerja sebagai orang kanan dalam syarikat lain which is Syarikat B n org yg tawarkan kerja tu pon kawan aku, Z~
dalam hati aku, aku nak pi kerja kat situ n tgk apa yg ada dlm syarikat tu tapi tak ada dlm syarikat aku~ aku dah mintak kebenaran dari BOSS dan dia kata "okie"~ jadi aku pon pi la kerja kat tempat tu n aku dapat bnyk pengalaman n aku mula excited nak balik ke Syarikat A aku n kongsi apa yg aku dapat masa aku kerja kat Syarikat B~ tapi bila aku sampai ja kat Syarikat A, beberapa orang rakan buka mulut bagitau aku sumthin~
dia cakap, "weh depa marah kat hang sebab hang pi kerja kat Syarikat B"~ terus2 dlm hati aku ckp "dude like seriously??? bukan ka hang kata 'okie' ka masa aku cakap aku nak pi kerja kat B???" then ada la benda lain yg diorang ckp mcm "lepas ni kalau Z ajak hang kerja dgn dia lagi hang jgn pi dah" and "kalau hang nk kerja dlm A, hang tak boleh kerja dalam syarikat lain dah"
weh, aku dah kerja bawah hang, hang tau aku pi kerja tempat lain pon aku akan balik kerja dgn hang tapi hang still nak halang aku kerja kat syarikat lain~ aku balik A sebab nak bantu A bangun jadi lebih maju naaa~ bukan sebab aku nak jatuhkan A~
plus, apa la salah Z kat hang eh BOSS??? tau tak sebab dia jugak nama A naik lepas dia bawak 'anak kapal' kita pi kat this event yg besar dlm industri kita~ i just dont get it how the shitto can you guys get this kind of old school thinkin~ KOLOT WEHHH~ SERIOUS KOLOTTT~
tlg la weh~ kalau kita nak maju, kita tak boleh nak duduk dalam tahap yg sama sepanjang masa~ kalau camtu, smpai ada cicit pon takkan maju~ kalau angpa tak suka sgt aku pi kerja kat syarikat lain, then you guys gave me no choice but to quit~ if you dont wanna move on to a higher level with me, then ill have to do it alone~ i dont give a damn about you guys, i only care bout the people who wants to move forward with me~
so please, if i quit, dont be mad at me~ its not me betraying you guys but its you who gave me no choice~ ADIOS BROTHAAA~
anywaysss~ ada menda yg aku agak confused sebenarnya~ one question, adakah salah untuk saya menaiktarafkan diri saya supaya saya dapat menimba lebih pengalaman tentang bidang yang saya ceburi??? adakah saya dapat maju dalam bidang yang saya ceburi jika saya kekal pada tahap yang sama?
sumthin like what im gonna tell happens and its really frustrating~ so here we go~
aku kerja dalam sebuah syarikat nih, Syarikat A~ syarikat ni takda la besar pon~ aku boleh dikatakan orang kanan dalam syarikat ni sebab aku antara orang2 yang membangunkan syarikat nih~ aku tgk syarikat ni dah lama beroperasi, tapi masih tak maju2~ kemudian aku terima tawaran utk kerja sebagai orang kanan dalam syarikat lain which is Syarikat B n org yg tawarkan kerja tu pon kawan aku, Z~
dalam hati aku, aku nak pi kerja kat situ n tgk apa yg ada dlm syarikat tu tapi tak ada dlm syarikat aku~ aku dah mintak kebenaran dari BOSS dan dia kata "okie"~ jadi aku pon pi la kerja kat tempat tu n aku dapat bnyk pengalaman n aku mula excited nak balik ke Syarikat A aku n kongsi apa yg aku dapat masa aku kerja kat Syarikat B~ tapi bila aku sampai ja kat Syarikat A, beberapa orang rakan buka mulut bagitau aku sumthin~
dia cakap, "weh depa marah kat hang sebab hang pi kerja kat Syarikat B"~ terus2 dlm hati aku ckp "dude like seriously??? bukan ka hang kata 'okie' ka masa aku cakap aku nak pi kerja kat B???" then ada la benda lain yg diorang ckp mcm "lepas ni kalau Z ajak hang kerja dgn dia lagi hang jgn pi dah" and "kalau hang nk kerja dlm A, hang tak boleh kerja dalam syarikat lain dah"
weh, aku dah kerja bawah hang, hang tau aku pi kerja tempat lain pon aku akan balik kerja dgn hang tapi hang still nak halang aku kerja kat syarikat lain~ aku balik A sebab nak bantu A bangun jadi lebih maju naaa~ bukan sebab aku nak jatuhkan A~
plus, apa la salah Z kat hang eh BOSS??? tau tak sebab dia jugak nama A naik lepas dia bawak 'anak kapal' kita pi kat this event yg besar dlm industri kita~ i just dont get it how the shitto can you guys get this kind of old school thinkin~ KOLOT WEHHH~ SERIOUS KOLOTTT~
tlg la weh~ kalau kita nak maju, kita tak boleh nak duduk dalam tahap yg sama sepanjang masa~ kalau camtu, smpai ada cicit pon takkan maju~ kalau angpa tak suka sgt aku pi kerja kat syarikat lain, then you guys gave me no choice but to quit~ if you dont wanna move on to a higher level with me, then ill have to do it alone~ i dont give a damn about you guys, i only care bout the people who wants to move forward with me~
so please, if i quit, dont be mad at me~ its not me betraying you guys but its you who gave me no choice~ ADIOS BROTHAAA~
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